FST01 - Fifty Shades of Grey Page 2

  My mouth drops open. I am staggered by his lack of humility.

  “Don’t you have a board to answer to?” I ask, disgusted.

  “I own my company. I don’t have to answer to a board.” He raises an eyebrow at me.

  I flush. Of course, I would know this if I had done some research. But holy crap, he’s so arrogant. I change tack.

  “And do you have any interests outside your work?”

  “I have varied interests, Miss Steele.” A ghost of a smile touches his lips. “Very varied.” And for some reason, I’m confounded and heated by his steady gaze. His eyes are alight with some wicked thought.

  “But if you work so hard, what do you do to chill out?”

  “Chill out?” He smiles, revealing perfect white teeth. I stop breathing. He really is beautiful. No one should be this good-looking.

  “Well, to ‘chill out’ as you put it – I sail, I fly, I indulge in various physical pursuits.” He shifts in his chair. “I’m a very wealthy man, Miss Steele, and I have expensive and absorbing hobbies.”

  I glance quickly at Kate’s questions, wanting to get off this subject.

  “You invest in manufacturing. Why, specifically?” I ask. Why does he make me so uncomfortable?

  “I like to build things. I like to know how things work: what makes things tick, how to construct and deconstruct. And I have a love of ships. What can I say?”

  “That sounds like your heart talking rather than logic and facts.” His mouth quirks up, and he stares appraisingly at me.

  “Possibly. Though there are people who’d say I don’t have a heart.”

  “Why would they say that?”

  “Because they know me well.” His lip curls in a wry smile.

  “Would your friends say you’re easy to get to know?” And I regret the question as soon as I say it. It’s not on Kate’s list.

  “I’m a very private person, Miss Steele. I go a long way to protect my privacy. I don’t often give interviews,” he trails off.

  “Why did you agree to do this one?”

  “Because I’m a benefactor of the University, and for all intents and purposes, I couldn’t get Miss Kavanagh off my back. She badgered and badgered my PR people, and I admire that kind of tenacity.”

  I know how tenacious Kate can be. That’s why I’m sitting here squirming uncomfortably under his penetrating gaze, when I should be studying for my exams.

  “You also invest in farming technologies. Why are you interested in this area?”

  “We can’t eat money, Miss Steele, and there are too many people on this planet who don’t have enough to eat.”

  “That sounds very philanthropic. Is it something you feel passionately about? Feeding the world’s poor?”

  He shrugs, very non-committal.

  “It’s shrewd business,” he murmurs, though I think he’s being disingenuous. It doesn’t make sense – feeding the world’s poor? I can’t see the financial benefits of this, only the virtue of the ideal. I glance at the next question, confused by his attitude.

  “Do you have a philosophy? If so, what is it?”

  “I don’t have a philosophy as such. Maybe a guiding principle – Carnegie’s: ‘A man who acquires the ability to take full possession of his own mind may take possession of anything else to which he is justly entitled.’ I’m very singular, driven. I like control – of myself and those around me.”

  “So you want to possess things?” You are a control freak.

  “I want to deserve to possess them, but yes, bottom line, I do.”

  “You sound like the ultimate consumer.”

  “I am.” He smiles, but the smile doesn’t touch his eyes. Again this is at odds with someone who wants to feed the world, so I can’t help thinking that we’re talking about something else, but I’m absolutely mystified as to what it is. I swallow hard. The temperature in the room is rising or maybe it’s just me. I just want this interview to be over. Surely Kate has enough material now? I glance at the next question.

  “You were adopted. How far do you think that’s shaped the way you are?” Oh, this is personal. I stare at him, hoping he’s not offended. His brow furrows.

  “I have no way of knowing.”

  My interest is piqued.

  “How old were you when you were adopted?”

  “That’s a matter of public record, Miss Steele.” His tone is stern. I flush, again. Crap.

  Yes of course – if I’d known I was doing this interview, I would have done some research.

  I move on quickly.

  “You’ve had to sacrifice a family life for your work.”

  “That’s not a question.” He’s terse.

  “Sorry.” I squirm, and he’s made me feel like an errant child. I try again. “Have you had to sacrifice a family life for your work?”

  “I have a family. I have a brother and a sister and two loving parents. I’m not interested in extending my family beyond that.”

  “Are you gay, Mr. Grey?”

  He inhales sharply, and I cringe, mortified. Crap. Why didn’t I employ some kind of filter before I read this straight out? How can I tell him I’m just reading the questions?

  Damn Kate and her curiosity!

  “No Anastasia, I’m not.” He raises his eyebrows, a cool gleam in his eyes. He does not look pleased.

  “I apologize. It’s um… written here.” It’s the first time he’s said my name. My heartbeat has accelerated, and my cheeks are heating up again. Nervously, I tuck my loosened hair behind my ear.

  He cocks his head to one side.

  “These aren’t your own questions?”

  The blood drains from my head. Oh no.

  “Err… no. Kate – Miss Kavanagh – she compiled the questions.”

  “Are you colleagues on the student paper?” Oh crap. I have nothing to do with the student paper. It’s her extra-curricular activity, not mine. My face is aflame.

  “No. She’s my roommate.”

  He rubs his chin in quiet deliberation, his gray eyes appraising me.

  “Did you volunteer to do this interview?” he asks, his voice deadly quiet.

  Hang on, who’s supposed to be interviewing whom? His eyes burn into me, and I’m compelled to answer with the truth.

  “I was drafted. She’s not well.” My voice is weak and apologetic.

  “That explains a great deal.”

  There’s a knock at the door, and Blonde Number Two enters.

  “Mr. Grey, forgive me for interrupting, but your next meeting is in two minutes.”

  “We’re not finished here, Andrea. Please cancel my next meeting.” Andrea hesitates, gaping at him. She’s appears lost. He turns his head slowly to face her and raises his eyebrows. She flushes bright pink. Oh good. It’s not just me.

  “Very well, Mr. Grey,” she mutters, then exits. He frowns, and turns his attention back to me.

  “Where were we, Miss Steele?”

  Oh, we’re back to ‘Miss Steele’ now.

  “Please don’t let me keep you from anything.”

  “I want to know about you. I think that’s only fair.” His gray eyes are alight with curiosity. Double crap. Where’s he going with this? He places his elbows on the arms of the chair and steeples his fingers in front of his mouth. His mouth is very… distracting. I swallow.

  “There’s not much to know,” I say, flushing again.

  “What are your plans after you graduate?”

  I shrug, thrown by his interest. Come to Seattle with Kate, find a place, find a job. I haven’t really thought beyond my finals.

  “I haven’t made any plans, Mr. Grey. I just need to get through my final exams.” Which I should be studying for now rather than sitting in your palatial, swanky, sterile office, feeling uncomfortable under your penetrating gaze.

  “We run an excellent internship program here,” he says quietly. I raise my eyebrows in surprise. Is he offering me a job?

  “Oh. I’ll bear that in mind,” I murmur, comp
letely confounded. “Though I’m not sure I’d fit in here.” Oh no. I’m musing out loud again.

  “Why do you say that?” He cocks his head to one side, intrigued, a hint of a smile playing on his lips.

  “It’s obvious, isn’t it?” I’m uncoordinated, scruffy, and I’m not blonde.

  “Not to me,” he murmurs. His gaze is intense, all humor gone, and strange muscles deep in my belly clench suddenly. I tear my eyes away from his scrutiny and stare blindly down at my knotted fingers. What’s going on? I have to go – now. I lean forward to retrieve the recorder.

  “Would you like me to show you around?” he asks.

  “I’m sure you’re far too busy, Mr. Grey, and I do have a long drive.”

  “You’re driving back to WSU in Vancouver?” He sounds surprised, anxious even. He glances out of the window. It’s begun to rain. “Well, you’d better drive carefully.” His tone is stern, authoritative. Why should he care? “Did you get everything you need?” he adds.

  “Yes sir,” I reply, packing the recorder into my satchel. His eyes narrow, speculatively.

  “Thank you for the interview, Mr. Grey.”

  “The pleasure’s been all mine,” he says, polite as ever.

  As I rise, he stands and holds out his hand.

  “Until we meet again, Miss Steele.” And it sounds like a challenge, or a threat, I’m not sure which. I frown. When will we ever meet again? I shake his hand once more, astounded that that odd current between us is still there. It must be my nerves.

  “Mr. Grey.” I nod at him. Moving with lithe athletic grace to the door, he opens it wide.

  “Just ensuring you make it through the door, Miss Steele.” He gives me a small smile.

  Obviously, he’s referring to my earlier less-than-elegant entry into his office. I flush.

  “That’s very considerate, Mr. Grey,” I snap, and his smile widens. I’m glad you find me entertaining, I glower inwardly, walking into the foyer. I’m surprised when he follows me out. Andrea and Olivia both look up, equally surprised.

  “Did you have a coat?” Grey asks.

  “Yes.” Olivia leaps up and retrieves my jacket, which Grey takes from her before she can hand it to me. He holds it up and, feeling ridiculously self-conscious, I shrug it on.

  Grey places his hands for a moment on my shoulders. I gasp at the contact. If he notices my reaction, he gives nothing away. His long index finger presses the button summoning the elevator, and we stand waiting – awkwardly on my part, coolly self-possessed on his.

  The doors open, and I hurry in desperate to escape. I really need to get out of here. When I turn to look at him, he’s leaning against the doorway beside the elevator with one hand on the wall. He really is very, very good-looking. It’s distracting. His burning gray eyes gaze at me.

  “Anastasia,” he says as a farewell.

  “Christian,” I reply. And mercifully, the doors close.

  My heart is pounding. The elevator arrives on the first floor, and I scramble out as soon as the doors slide open, stumbling once, but fortunately not sprawling on to the immaculate sandstone floor. I race for the wide glass doors, and I’m free in the bracing, cleansing, damp air of Seattle. Raising my face, I welcome the cool refreshing rain. I close my eyes and take a deep, purifying breath, trying to recover what’s left of my equilibrium.

  No man has ever affected me the way Christian Grey has, and I cannot fathom why.

  Is it his looks? His civility? Wealth? Power? I don’t understand my irrational reaction.

  I breathe an enormous sigh of relief. What in heaven’s name was that all about? Leaning against one of the steel pillars of the building, I valiantly attempt to calm down and gather my thoughts. I shake my head. Holy crap – what was that? My heart steadies to its regular rhythm, and I can breathe normally again. I head for the car.

  As I leave the city limits behind, I begin to feel foolish and embarrassed as I replay the interview in my mind. Surely, I’m over-reacting to something that’s imaginary. Okay, so he’s very attractive, confident, commanding, at ease with himself – but on the flip side, he’s arrogant, and for all his impeccable manners, he’s autocratic and cold. Well, on the surface.

  An involuntary shiver runs down my spine. He may be arrogant, but then he has a right to be – he’s accomplished so much at such a young age. He doesn’t suffer fools gladly, but why should he? Again, I’m irritated that Kate didn’t give me a brief biography.

  While cruising along the I-5, my mind continues to wander. I’m truly perplexed as to what makes someone so driven to succeed. Some of his answers were so cryptic – as if he had a hidden agenda. And Kate’s questions – ugh! The adoption and asking him if he was gay! I shudder. I can’t believe I said that. Ground, swallow me up now! Every time I think of that question in the future, I will cringe with embarrassment. Damn Katherine Kavanagh!

  I check the speedometer. I’m driving more cautiously than I would on any other occasion. And I know it’s the memory of two penetrating gray eyes gazing at me, and a stern voice telling me to drive carefully. Shaking my head, I realize that Grey’s more like a man double his age.

  Forget it, Ana, I scold myself. I decide that all in all, it’s been a very interesting experience, but I shouldn’t dwell on it . Put it behind you. I never have to see him again. I’m immediately cheered by the thought. I switch on the MP3 player and turn the volume up loud, sit back, and listen to thumping indie rock music as I press down on the accelerator.

  As I hit the 1-5, I realize I can drive as fast as I want.

  We live in a small community of duplex apartments in Vancouver, Washington, close to the Vancouver campus of WSU. I’m lucky – Kate’s parents bought the place for her, and I pay peanuts for rent. It’s been home for four years now. As I pull up outside, I know Kate is going to want a blow-by-blow account, and she is tenacious. Well, at least she has the mini-disc. Hopefully I won’t have to elaborate much beyond what was said during the interview.

  “Ana! You’re back.” Kate sits in our living area, surrounded by books. She’s clearly been studying for finals – though she’s still in her pink flannel pajamas decorated with cute little rabbits, the ones she reserves for the aftermath of breaking up with boyfriends, for assorted illnesses, and for general moody depression. She bounds up to me and hugs me hard.

  “I was beginning to worry. I expected you back sooner.”

  “Oh, I thought I made good time considering the interview ran over.” I wave the mini-disc recorder at her.

  “Ana, thank you so much for doing this. I owe you, I know. How was it? What was he like?” Oh no – here we go, the Katherine Kavanagh Inquisition.

  I struggle to answer her question. What can I say?

  “I’m glad it’s over, and I don’t have to see him again. He was rather intimidating, you know.” I shrug. “He’s very focused, intense even – and young. Really young.” Kate gazes innocently at me. I frown at her.

  “Don’t you look so innocent. Why didn’t you give me a biography? He made me feel like such an idiot for skimping on basic research.” Kate clamps a hand to her mouth.

  “Jeez, Ana, I’m sorry – I didn’t think.”

  I huff.

  “Mostly he was courteous, formal, slightly stuffy – like he’s old before his time. He doesn’t talk like a man of twenty-something. How old is he anyway?”

  “Twenty-seven. Jeez, Ana, I’m sorry. I should have briefed you, but I was in such a panic. Let me have the mini-disc, and I’ll start transcribing the interview.”

  “You look better. Did you eat your soup?” I ask, keen to change the subject.

  “Yes, and it was delicious as usual. I’m feeling much better.” She smiles at me in gratitude. I check my watch.

  “I have to run. I can still make my shift at Clayton’s.”

  “Ana, you’ll be exhausted.”

  “I’ll be fine. I’ll see you later.”

  I’ve worked at Clayton’s since I started at WSU. It’s the lar
gest independent hardware store in the Portland area, and over the four years I’ve worked here, I’ve come to know a little bit about most everything we sell – although ironically, I’m crap at any DIY. I leave all that to my dad. I’m much more of a curl-up-with-a-book-in-a-comfy-chair-by-the-fire kind of girl. I’m glad I can make my shift as it gives me something to focus on that isn’t Christian Grey. We’re busy – it’s the start of the summer season, and folks are redecorating their homes. Mrs. Clayton is pleased to see me.

  “Ana! I thought you weren’t going to make it today.”

  “My appointment didn’t take as long as I thought. I can do a couple of hours.”

  “I’m real pleased to see you.”

  She sends me to the storeroom to start re-stocking shelves, and I’m soon absorbed in the task.

  When I arrive home later, Katherine is wearing headphones and working on her laptop.

  Her nose is still pink, but she has her teeth into a story, so she’s concentrating and typing furiously. I’m thoroughly drained – exhausted by the long drive, the grueling interview, and by being rushed off my feet at Clayton’s. I slump on to the couch, thinking about the essay I have to finish and all the studying I haven’t done today because I was holed up with … him.

  “You’ve got some good stuff here, Ana. Well done. I can’t believe you didn’t take him up on his offer to show you around. He obviously wanted to spend more time with you.” She gives me a fleeting quizzical look.

  I flush, and my heart rate inexplicably increases. That wasn’t the reason, surely? He just wanted to show me around so I could see that he was lord of all he surveyed. I realize I’m biting my lip, and I hope Kate doesn’t notice. But she seems absorbed in her transcrip-tion.“I hear what you mean about formal. Did you take any notes?” she asks.

  “Um… no, I didn’t.”

  “That’s fine. I can still make a fine article with this. Shame we don’t have some original stills. Good-looking son of a bitch, isn’t he?” I flush.

  “I suppose so.” I try hard to sound disinterested, and I think I succeed.

  “Oh come on, Ana – even you can’t be immune to his looks.” She arches a perfect eyebrow at me.